His Beautiful Beloved

Song of Solomon 7:10

“I belong to my Lover and His desire is for me.”

Many of those who know me know that my favorite book in the Bible is Song of Solomon. A lot of people don’t understand why I’m so in love with this book; and to be honest, if you had asked me to turn to Song of Solomon a few years ago, I wouldn’t even have known where to look. But around 2 years ago, God introduced me to this incredible book. In just a matter of weeks, verses from Song of Solomon kept popping up everywhere I looked. It came up in conversations, songs, social media, and everywhere else you can imagine. And one day, within those few weeks, a stranger prayed for me and as she was praying for me, she gave me one verse. The one verse she gave to me was Song of Solomon 4:7. At that moment, everything began to click and I finally got the message. All this was not just one big coincidence. It was God. So I went home that day and opened up my Bible to Song of Solomon for the very first time.

Song of Solomon 4:7
“All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you”

I still remember the night I first read Song of Solomon because as I read it, God began to open my eyes up to His calling in my life. And part of that calling was to be His pure, undefiled bride. I remember crying in my bed that night because I was simply overwhelmed by everything that God was speaking to me about. That night, for the first time ever, I felt God call me beautiful. He calls me beautiful not because of how I look or what I have done, but because I am His. As I read and reread this book, God slowly began to help me understand the story between the lover and his beloved, and through that, I have come to realize that God is calling us all to be His bride – His beloved – and just simply ‘His’. After reading Song of Solomon, my perspective of my relationship with God changed from ‘God and human’ to ‘Lover and beloved’. I have come to see God as not just my God, but as my Lover. And I have come to see myself as not just “another human being”, but as His beloved. This new perspective has changed the way I think, the way I worship, and the way I seek God. I pursue Him now knowing that He first pursued me. I pursue Him knowing that He longs for and desires for my intimacy and not only that, but He relentlessly chases after it. He longs for us to talk to Him, walk with Him, and simply love on Him. Through His eyes, we are beautiful and unimaginably precious. He has claimed ownership over us and has called us “His”.
I have a ring that I wear on my finger every day and it says “I am my Lover’s and He is mine. Song of Solomon 6:3” To me, this ring I wear represents my marriage, love, and faithfulness to Jesus Christ, my Lover. It signifies that I am forever His and He will be forever mine. It is a constant reminder that God calls me His – His beautiful beloved.

I encourage you to read Song of Solomon. I know that not everyone may fully understand it, because I myself still do not even fully understand it yet. But this book has changed me forever and I want it to do the same for you. God is calling us to be His brides – HIS brides. He calls us His beautiful beloved. He calls YOU His beautiful beloved. This simple fact has changed me forever. I will never forget it. So don’t YOU forget it.

I posted this picture on my Instagram account 82 weeks ago. Never would I have imagined, 82 weeks later, it would still have the same amount of impact on me as it did the very day I first read it. Never would I have imagined, 2 years later, it would become the verse that would appear on my very own blog!

The Start of Something New

You know that feeling when God puts something in your heart and you can’t seem to push it away? Yeah, that feeling is what I’m feeling right now. And this blog is the result of that feeling.

Here’s how it happened:

One night, as I was trying falling asleep, God put this crazy idea into my head – start your own blog. As you can probably guess, I did the typical move that everyone does when God tells them to do something crazy – laugh it off and brush it off. Usually, this works and you move on. However, this time, it didn’t work. I couldn’t get it out of my mind and I couldn’t fall asleep. Finally, I gave in and said these words, “God, if this is what you want, then give me a name for the blog.” I tried to think of a name all night but couldn’t and eventually fell asleep. But the second I woke up the next morning, these words came to my mind – the bride and her bridegroom. I repeated this over and over in my head – “the bride and her bridegroom, the bride and her bridegroom, etc…” What does this mean? And God said, “You are the bride and I am your bridegroom. Write about our love story.” And instantly, I knew that this was going to my blog’s name. It is a love story between me, the blemished bride, and Jesus Christ, the holy and beloved Bridegroom. It is a love story between US, the church, and Jesus Christ, the soon-returning and spotless Savior.

For the past few days, I have still been trying to forget about this whole blog thing. But God hasn’t been letting me forget it. As I have been reading the Word, He has been putting things in my heart, and He then puts in me this urge to write it all down. But I don’t. Everything just sits in my brain and I try to keep it in there because I don’t want to forget it, yet I still don’t want to write it down. I would rather stuff it all in, rather than sit down with a pen and paper and let it all out. If you know me, you know that I am very lazy when it comes to journaling. I don’t always like to journal and when I do, it’s for the “very important things”, and even then I still try to keep it as short as possible, often just simply running over the details and leaving out everything I know about order and grammar. So never in my dreams would I ever have imagined myself sitting here writing out an entire blog. But God has other plans. He wants me to remember the words that He speaks to me and He wants me to keep a record of my journey with Him. And along the way, perhaps He will use the words that I write to encourage and uplift those who read it. So here I am, sitting in my room, writing a blog.

My prayer for this blog is that it will touch and speak into the lives of those who read it. Maybe in the most seemingly insignificant ways, it will bring some light into darkness. Maybe in the smallest ways, it will speak life into dying situations. My hope is that through it, God will touch even just one person. It is not about me or the words that I write, but it’s about God – our Bridegroom. It is about Him and His love for His bride. I’m just a simple teenager who simply said yes to the prompting of the Holy Spirit. I don’t know what God has in-store from here on now, but I do know that He is faithful to complete the works that He begins in us. So here begins a new season in my life, a new ministry in my life, and a new work in my life.

– Evangelynn